January 2012
Anonymous asked: You are the best person I know.
Anonymous asked: Whether you deny it or not, you are probably AT LEAST within the top 10% of Awesome Humans. As in, 90% of humanity probably sucks more than you do. Except that's probably how most people see you. I hate humanity so I'd say top 1% - the top 1% that is the wealthiest in bravery, righteousness, and awesomeness.
Anonymous asked: beautiful. talented. fantastic. you go girl.
December 2011
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Before 2011 is over, I want someone to go to my...
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The more I type my brother’s name, the stranger it seems. It doesn’t even feel like a word anymore.
Amado
I mean, what is that, just a word. But not even a word, something else.
amadoamadoamadoamadoamadoamado
My mom’s been reading lately, and now she wants to borrow Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close.
Yes yes yes. She must read this book. She must.
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I dream about Amado often. The past two dreams I had with him, his hair was cut short, like back in his Denton days. He was supposed to be dead, so I stared at him amazed. And he stared at me not speaking, but looking sympathetic. Some people asked me why I cared so much that he was there, and why I was giving him so much of my attention. I thought that was a stupid question, because when someone...
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I know I love someone when the words travel through my brain when I’m with them.
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“I felt, that night, on that stage, under that skull, incredibly close to...”
– Jonathan Safran Foer (via thechocolatebrigade)
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I find myself wondering if there’s a certain way I’m supposed to be living, and am I living the right way. Is there a right way? It feels like there should be, but there probably isn’t. There’s no purpose, we’re just here, but it’s strange because you’ve always been taught that there are different paths to take. I don’t want to take a path, I think....
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“I was never aware of any other option but to question everything.”
– Noam Chomsky (via soporifics)
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widowinparadise:
Christmas In The Room / Sufjan...
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Here’s a cover of a cover, or a cover of...
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Taking a break from the cover, and I probably won’t have it finished until tomorrow.
I drew baby Karina for Andres for Christmas. ~hope he likes it~
I’m “watching” a movie with my mom in Amado’s room. I’m really just being near her and reading things I wrote. This is a piece of something I wrote once but don’t remember writing so it’s like...
Whoa. Other people tell me they forget to eat and I think, “How can you forget to eat?” but now I understand because I forgot to eat a meal today.
(I’ve been working on a cover, that’s why.)
<3 Tim and Eric Chrimbus Special <3
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Louis CK just GETS it, you know?
If I were a man, I would be him. As it is, I think we are very similar.
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People you love will make you sad without even realizing it. They don’t even have to try, they’ll just say things and they’ll hurt you and you won’t understand why.
Anonymous asked: what happened to your brother?
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In other news, I visited my brother today with my family. Seeing the mound of dirt and knowing that his body was six feet beneath it made me feel closer to him, even though the physical body isn’t really him anymore, as it’s slowly rotting there. I don’t like to imagine it, but when I inevitably do, I don’t feel as terrible as I probably should. My mind is so morbid and...
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MISFITS WHYYYYYYYYYY
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Sufjan Stevens | The Winter...
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“mommy, no. mommy, please no.”
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I got a 3.65 GPA, and I am okay with that. I did better last semester, but the circumstances were different then. I’m amazed I got an A- in Social Psychology. I mean, hell yes, that’s awesome. B+ in American Lit, I can live with that, but a B in Music Theory? Again?? Fffuuu, I just have a love/hate relationship with that class. I hate analyzing music I just want to enjoy listening to,...
Sleeping in = livin’ the good life
I had a really long, lucid dream last night, or shall I say, early this morning. I knew I was asleep for the entire dream, and I knew how easy it would be to wake myself up from it. I could feel myself blinking in the dream, it was quite bizarre. I was in my room, and when I looked in the mirror, my reflection was completely distorted. I just stared in that mirror and laughed, but then I freaked...
I’m making myself sad on purpose. I wrote this a few months ago.
Why am I feeling this now? I’m afraid for myself and everyone I love. I’m afraid everything is going to go wrong, or is already going wrong, and there’s nothing I can do to stop it.
Oh, [fears] do come true!
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I guess I just can’t sleep and my mind and music are keeping me awake. So I’m going through some things I’ve written some time ago.
Except even the happy occasions aren’t so happy, and there’s reason to find sadness in them. Perhaps when I was a child I didn’t, but now I feel too much to simply accept emotions as black and white. When I’m happy, I’m...
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Plans for tomorrow
play music
read
write
buy presents
buy music
miss people, since I’ll be alone a lot of tomorrow
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Done.